life is going two different directions.





my brother is gone.

he'll come back, right?

This is going to be a hard month for me.
I miss my friends

I'm trying to undo this mess I've become.
It's pretty bad !

is too hard for me to handle.
i wasn't made for these kinds of tests.
i'm too weak.
someone give me a reason to care.

This year has gone by so ridiculously fast and it's about to end tomorrow.
I went from literally the lowest part of my life to the highest .
When I asked myself, "Where the hell did 2008 go?"
My only answer was right where it should have gone, to happiness, to tons of fun, laughs, to being lighthearted and carefree.
So even if I felt like the world was going to end yesterday, it's not haha. Because I have my babe.


So here's to 2008
And hoping that 2009 will be just as awesome, if not better











So what are you guys doing for the New Year?
And I've been pretty stoked to pick up bass .
And being rusty at guitar with my babe.

p.s.
this journal is just a repeat/ a collection of my thoughts that have been voiced like 8,000 times.
I just like writing things down.

SO I was sitting next to teh Neemster earlier today.
UM.
And I just lost my train of thought
How's everyone liking December?
AND
Any new music suggestions for me?